I was in the shower this morning, and this phrase that I use to live by was gone. “walk with confidence”. Yesterday at Aikido I totally lost myself and couldn’t perform what was expected and there, my ego, was the root to everything. Instead of cursing and swearing at how embarrassed I was, I might as well just focus on myself rather than on others and start working hard again! Today, start of work. I got posted to the baking kitchen. First thought, shit, why can’t everyone just get it in their heads that baking is not my forte! I was very nervous and totally lacked the confidence when I was doing the pastries. But then I realised, rather than complaining, why not make full use of this opportunity to make baking my forte as well? I was taught of the whole “feeling” by the sous chef today and it totally changed my mindset of baking. Imma inject more affection and passion now. Pardon me if I get mushy, all because of baking. (: Oh, one more shit. The executive chef wants me to bake a cake on Deepavali, freestyle, and he’ll judge. The thought of it makes me want to shit already. =X

I was in the shower this morning, and this phrase that I use to live by was gone. “walk with confidence”. Yesterday at Aikido I totally lost myself and couldn’t perform what was expected and there, my ego, was the root to everything. Instead of cursing and swearing at how embarrassed I was, I might as well just focus on myself rather than on others and start working hard again!

Today, start of work. I got posted to the baking kitchen. First thought, shit, why can’t everyone just get it in their heads that baking is not my forte! I was very nervous and totally lacked the confidence when I was doing the pastries. But then I realised, rather than complaining, why not make full use of this opportunity to make baking my forte as well? I was taught of the whole “feeling” by the sous chef today and it totally changed my mindset of baking. Imma inject more affection and passion now. Pardon me if I get mushy, all because of baking. (:

Oh, one more shit. The executive chef wants me to bake a cake on Deepavali, freestyle, and he’ll judge. The thought of it makes me want to shit already. =X

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